#32 – Two years in a nutshell

May I present to you: The first video after two years as well as a new layout of my website. What started as a cycling-trip towards Australia, turns out to have total different outcomes. There is a need to stay for longer and longer in places.

Me

It feels a bit like a monastery here. Lizards run away from me when I try to walk the path from the down-house to the upper-house, where the community-room, music-room and kitchen is. The intense smell of Linden penetrates my body. All nature is big here. It flows, as I flow. My day consists of meditation, eating – collected from the garden, cleaning and sleeping. I am not in the hotel anymore.

Food from the Garden

In two weeks it will be three years ago that I left for a landtrip and break from work and study for a couple of months. I hitchhiked to Mongolia, after that to Iran – and started cycling which made me ending up in Bulgaria with injuries in my knees. So if you want to know why Bulgaria, this is why Bulgaria. I kept making new plans for hitchhiking new continents, crossing the ocean by hitchhiking but every time when went into the plan-thinking, my body hurt. It kept telling me: Rein, you have to go inside. I shared a lot about meditation in my video’s and blogs while I didn’t truly know what meditation is. That’s no problem, I was on my way to where I am now. .

One month ago I stopped the hotel-project. Busy with helping people, I was avoiding going to the core of my restlessness. I will try to describe in some short sentences what it gives me now: Being one with everything, close to nature, being with people that have the same knowledge, drives and plans and a little amount of chemicals, sweets and electricity. I am diving, deeper and deeper. Going trough fears, embracing, living. The restlessness is fading away and I feel that I am going to a place that I didn’t visit for a long time.

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Spring

”Of course you have terrible soil problems in your country. What do you expect when you call it dirt?” (Hemenway, 2009)

Backyard

The whole forest turns green and becomes a big permaculture garden when the first sunbeam of spring shines trough the forest. Every day we pick great amounts of wild garlic from the forest where we make pesto from. The first workawayers left and new workawayers came. From Yekaterinburg, a city in the middle of Russia that I crossed, hitchhiking – three years ago. It is interesting to share each others stories and I think about how heavy it was for me, hitchhiking from Mongolia back to the Netherlands.

Full of energy, I am working on getting European attention for the project. With the help of friends in The Netherlands, we try to attract funding and visitors. Soon, the first guests – a big archeologists group that will stay for over a month will come and every day is cleaning and preparing,

Entrance

It’s great to see that Itso and Ana really want to make their hotel more ecological and are starting to seperate their trash more and more and even telling me sometimes to be aware of my ecological footprint. I must say, it’s still quite a struggle in Bulgaria to make clear to people what it means to minimize the ecological footprint, mainly because many give up and think that it will never change. It looks like there is a mindset that has to be broken trough. Being here for longer time, it sometimes makes me sad when people are constantly pointing with their finger to others, saying how stupid they are instead of taking initiative themselves to change something.

My house

Which amount of my time do I waste with changing others instead of being happy with me and working on myself? How can I change the mentality of people when I point at them instead of changing myself? I am laying in front of the caravan after sunset and it starts to be cold. Let’s go and have a shower. Amazing, I can just walk every day to a shower, lift the handle and warm water comes out. Birds whistle and the forest prepares for the night…